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Friday, July 25, 2003
04:44 p.m.

Friday Five:

1. If your life were a movie, what would the title be?
"Crossroads."

No, kidding. XD Um, I don’t really know … because I have no idea what the movie would be *about.* I mean, is this supposed to encompass my entire life? My life thus far? How about "Work in Progress," with the assumption that we’d come back to it later? ^_^;;

2. What songs would be on the soundtrack?
Okay, this is the fun part. :D The only problem is that most of the songs I like and would want to hear wouldn’t fit in a movie about me ... because they’re somewhat depressing, or incompatible with my view on life, or I’m not a dying prostitute dreaming of her long-lost daughter, you know, that kind of thing.

Anyway, here are a few songs that I could see in there:

-First off, I.D. by Sakamoto Maaya. The lyrics are very honest, and I like the outlook on life.
-Imaginary by Evanescence. It’s my favorite song, lyrics-wise, off of Fallen -- a sort of validation of being spacey and introspective and a dreamer.
-Getting less serious now: Life is Good by Sakamoto Maaya. It’s just a fun song … and it reminds me of the summer of junior year, which was one of those golden summers that makes movie material anyway.
-Friends by Yonekura Chihiro, from Houshin Engi. For, obviously, my friends. :D
-I also have to include La Vie Boheme from Rent (complete with chorus of Life Cafe patrons, please XD).
-Bring on the Men from Jekyll and Hyde. Hell, why not? XD;;
-And, of course, no soundtrack would be complete without Soramimi Cake by Oranges and Lemons, from Azumanga Daioh.

There’s also composers, for BGMs and the like. However, most of my favorites, like Iwasaki Taku, are somewhat depressing. To be sure, his music would be perfect for the heartrending climax in which Kenshin dies in my arms. XD;; But, you know, I should at least save that for the sequel.

3. Would it be a live-action film or animated? Why?
Animated, because I know more seiyuu than live-action actors. At least, in terms of who would be a good match for my friends. And animation is so much more flexible -- I would choose whoever directed AzuDai to do it. :D

4. Casting: who would play you, members of your family, friends, etc?
Hm. Um ... this is hard. I like neechan’s choices a lot. Except I would make *her* be played by Hiramatsu Akiko. XD;; As for me, I’m not sure. Maybe Tanaka Rie (in her Yomi voice, not Chii O_o). I have no idea, really. But if this were to be a Disney-esque musical style, Lea Salonga would do all my singing parts, of course.

There were only a couple of other ones I could think of, so here they are:
-Terra: Hoshi Souichirou. Because she likes him, and besides -- he proved with Kazuki that he can play a girl. ^_~;;
-Hanne: Otoha (Mitsuki Natsumi from Getbackers). Because suuure, she sounds all sweet and cute at first, but just try getting in her way (i.e., in ping pong). XD
-Michio: Ishii Kouji (Kimura-sensei from AzuDai). HA. HA. HA. XD
-Mike: Wakamoto Norio (Chiyo-chichi from AzuDai). Suggested by neechan. XD
-my as-yet-unnamed romantic lead: Kaneshiro Takeshi (various drama, including Kami-sama Mou Sukoshi Dake). ^_____^ <--innocent smile
-oh, and my dad would be played by the father from My Big Fat Greek Wedding

5. Describe the movie preview/trailer.
Okay, now this one I can’t do. I’m no film person. :P I don’t know, maybe we’ll have the camera panning in a dramatic sweep of the scenery, and then some crazy ass dog will body-slam the cameraman.

Wednesday, July 23, 2003
08:39 p.m.

Your entry on fangirls (coupled with Ruaki's previous thoughts on the matter) have gotten me thinking. I can understand and sympathize with your annoyance at the shallow squealing fangirls who see no further merit in a series than the possible hot yaoi pairings that lay within (to be distinguished, of course, from the shallow squealing fangirls who *do* appreciate the full package ... I object only to the narrow-mindedness, not the easy amusement ^_^;). It's a perfectly reasonable reaction to an attempt to reduce the content of an entire series to what's pretty or sexy. Incidentally, I see that in RuroKen fandom, too -- not so much with yaoi pairings, at least not where I browse, but with the tendency to embrace a male character or a het coupling just because the guy is TEH HOT.

But then, I'm not angered by the usage of blatant fanservice by Animage as others, because, like you, I don't take it seriously. I mean, how can you *not* laugh at Ginji being so fluffy happy and homo-clueless when Ban's sprawled on top of him? It just seems too silly to be sexyhot. I have no idea if Animage is aware of this impression, and just trying to amuse the fans; or if they are trying to seriously convince people that this is all GetBackers is about. I would choose the first option and not be concerned any further ... But then, there's also that comment Ruaki made, that if one were to embrace yaoi fanservice, one must not object to similar treatment of female characters. And, well ... I don't. ^_^;

Don't get me wrong; I don't advocate the objectification of members of either gender. I don't like things that reduce a man or woman to this or that body part, rather than highlighting sexuality as an aspect of his or her person. Or the treatment of the person as a thing to be used, willing or no -- that's why I'm bothered by non-con yaoi, no matter how 'pretty.' (All right, so this is borderline bondage, but.) And I know there are people who are entertained by that, but I can only say that I don't agree. But lighthearted fanservice, something that's sexy and fun but not demeaning? I don't see any harm in that.

As for 'fandom superiority' -- I don't think you're being elitist in any way, because it's not like you're saying that fangirling is bad on its own. Just that fans who don't like the series as a whole, rather than nothing more than a source for hawt yaoi ... well, aren't fans of the series as a whole. ^_^;;

And o_o! Kazu-chan in a nurse's uniform! Akabane-san feeding Ginji apples!? Neko-chaaaan, can I beg you to show me that episode as soon as we're back in Seattle? XD;;

Tuesday, July 22, 2003
08:40 p.m.

My arm hurts. ^_O;; Got a shot for Hepatitis B this morning so that I'm not in (as much) danger when I get my lab on. It was more painful than most shots, but I didn't actually mind it too much -- at least not in comparison to the mind-bogglingly inept clinic I went to to get it. For one thing, I had to choose one of three options on their official form: work-related injury (uh, hopefully I'm getting this immunization *before* I'm exposed O.o;;), examination (with, specifically, "no medical treatment") -- and drug testing. XD;; What was more disturbing, however, was the fact that three of us from the company went to get the same shot -- and no one at the clinic seemed to know what treatment we were supposed to receive. O.o

Besides that little worry, however, the worst part was the wait. By the end of the first hour after which my appointment was originally scheduled, I began to look forward to the shot as something to alleviate my boredom. XD;; I'm guessing the mix-up in our treatments wasn't quite relayed to the necessary people, because the first thing the guy did after I got called in was try to stick a thermometer in my mouth. ^_^;; But, after that, things were cleared up, I got poked, and we returned to work only two hours after we had left ...

And right now, I've got my interest piqued by an email I got on the English department mailing list, advertising a job opening for a student assistant. The position would be with a tumor research group on campus, doing things like filing and data entry. And that's ... almost exactly what I'm doing right now. XD;; Plus, the pay is better than what I get right now at my campus job, with regular raises. Hmm ...

Monday, July 21, 2003
08:29 p.m.

Rec time! I read some fics today that I must share with you all. (Although I got all these after finding them at *other* rec sites, but ... I'm simply consolidating them for your convenience, you know. :D)

First off, an AzuDai fic -- the first one I've found that comes close to capturing the essence of the series, since the one neko-chan recced a few months back. It's called "Field Trip." Really cute, and I can really picture some of the seiyuu -- especially Hiramatsu Akiko -- saying some of these lines. XD;;

Then, of course, there's Shigure's Secret Homosexual Bondage Dungeon. Just because. ^_~

And finally, a Hurt/Comfort fic. No, really. It's about Hurt pining after Comfort. It's great. XD

Today was kite-flying day, because we've got an intern-sponsored hot dog/ice cream/kite social-picnic-thingy next week, and we had to test out our new kites. It was rather fun, since it's been years since I've flown a kite -- and I've never tried to do it in South San Francisco winds. @_@ It was something. (And no, I didn't get much work done today. ^_^;;)

Sunday, July 20, 2003
09:45 p.m.

Out on an idyllic stroll around my cousin's neighborhood with neechan and our two cousins, we chanced upon a wiry brown dog, slightly smaller than a typical full-grown lab. We were rounding the last leg of our walk, and the dog was just a little down the street from my cousin's house, so I thought it would be fun to play with it for a little while before going inside. In fact, it was not until I saw it barrelling down at us at full break-neck speed that I began to feel the first twinge of concern.

Still no problem, I thought. I figured it would jump up, give me a good sniff and maybe a lick or two, and be done with it. But I didn't just get a set of paws on my leg or an enthusiastic nose in my hand; when I saw its eager-eyed head on level with my chest and stumbled back a step after I felt it leap up and nail me with its hindquarters, I realized that this was NOT A NORMAL DOG.

It didn't stop after me, nor after it had successfully body-slammed all four of us. It decided to come BACK for seconds, and, I believe, make a little game that was something along the lines of "See which girl goes down first." All of us, in our own way, attempted to fend it off. Cousin Tiffany attempted to subdue it physically (read: grabbing its head, but in actuality only holding it closer to her and getting an eyeful of dog-face). Cousin Brenda cleverly applied her knowledge of canine behavior and feigned a non-aggressive stance in order to pacify it (read: playing dead, which was quickly abandoned when it only made the dog see an easier target). Sister Myra initiated a cunning pattern of aggression and retreat by yelling and running away (read: yelling and running away). And I, drawing upon the vast learning on which I pride my ability to resolve any difficult situation, employed some stern and authoritative language that echoed that of the most experienced dog handlers (read: "Mother#*$&(@! Get the @#&*! away from me!").

Fortunately, however, we managed to courageously and ingeniously draw away the attention of the beast and escape into the safety of my cousin's house (read: the dog looked the other way and we ran inside). That wasn't the end of it, however, because my aunt was soon heard yelling about the strange dog that was in the backyard. I assure you that none of us screamed like girls when we heard that. The fact that only Tiffany went outside to lead it away was purely a strategic decision, of course. We did, however, find out just how it had managed to get inside the yard in the first place, when she shut the five-and-a-half-foot fence door on it, and it LEAPED its way back inside. TWICE.

It took the four of us, split among the house and two areas of the neighborhood, as well as my aunt and her car, to get the dog out and away and all of us back inside. Of course, there was also that moment when it charged up the street and ran into the garage, but that is something to haunt my dreams for another night.

I should say, though, that we all seemed to deal with it quite well. We had a secure hold on our wits, so that after -- and for a large part during -- the incident, we managed to laugh about it. And maybe sometimes that laughter was semi-hysterical, but that's beside the point.

Friday, July 18, 2003
12:57 p.m.

Dogma Mary Sues. OMGWTF!? Really, I fail to see how people can have both the desire and the delusion to think that satire=Sue material.

But! Here's the part that nearly made me snort my lunch up my nose with laughter -- some of the comments included summaries from the Sue writer's other fics on FF.Net. Among them, one for the X-Men movie:

They call her Storm because she can control the weather. They call him Wolverine because of his claws. They call her Ciara...because they don't know who she is.

Thursday, July 17, 2003
03:18 p.m.

Being an intern here, watching neechan do her thing, and tinkering in the lab myself, I've realized ... I really want to work somewhere else next summer. XD;;

No, that's a good thing, really. What I mean is -- I've gotten a taste of what regular working is like, how it is to be in a professional setting and have to learn how to function there. And it's not like I haven't had fun. But, unlike neechan, this isn't what I want to do for the rest of my life (or a close approximation thereof). What I really want to try now is interning at a newspaper or magazine, or maybe a publishing house or a literary agency -- to get to find out what it's like to go to work and do something like/about/related to my field of choice. To get all the experience and challenge and opportunity, but in something I really love. Now that would be just cool. *_*

Wednesday, July 16, 2003
06:42 p.m.

So this morning before we went to work, neechan noticed a spider on our window. She squished it, but it was, to our utter delight, tangled *in* the lacy material of the curtain. >_< We abandoned the body, to return and dispose of it this evening ...

Only, when we got home and looked at it again, we discovered two things: one, that it was not quite dead yet. And two ... it wasn't alone. It had laid an EGG SAC that was ready to HATCH.

*convulsive shudder*

After a complex operation involving three people (me, neechan, and my cousin's son), cups, and a stick, we got rid of both spider and sac outside. And that curtain is definitely not going back up in our room anytime soon ... but oh, oh, OH. WHY did that spider have to pick that particular spot when it was feeling a maternal urge? It was right above where my head goes when we sleep. >_< And ... and ... eeewww. Just EEEWWW. I have no issue with spiders in general, but hundreds of little creatures that I cannot see but can most certainly feel, ready to launch themselves into new life just above my hair? That, I cannot deal with.

But anyway, all is (hopefully) solved, and, except for a bone-deep chill that I will not be able to rid myself of for a few days, I have emerged unscathed. I know the woman of the house is supposed to be able to deal with spiders and other creepy-crawlies unflinchingly, but, well ... you deal with something like this, and then tell me how you can do it. :P

As a random side note -- I have not been able to get to your blog, or, for that matter, any page on hanashika.com for several days now. Is it just me? o_o Can you drop me an email or something and let me know you're still there? ^_^;;

Wednesday, July 16, 2003
09:06 a.m.

"Like, I'm not being mean, I'm just listing the facts, okay? I mean, just because I subscribe to stereotypes and, like, swallow propaganda like so much ice cream doesn't mean I'm PREJUDICED, okay?"

Ugh. Please remind me not to start out my morning reading random author bios from the Pit of Voles. Not a healthy way to begin my day.

And what's even worse is that this chick exemplifies not only the well-known youth affliction of regurgitating the bigoted "thoughts" others have force-fed into her brain ... but also the typically older-generation pseudo-defense of "I have friends who are (insert minority of choice here)! So I'm not prejudiced!"

Yah-huh.

(Pardon me, I'm feeling liberal today. Indulge me and read this Doonesbury strip.)

Oh, right. Good morning everyone. ^_^

Tuesday, July 15, 2003
10:42 p.m.

And suddenly, after a first week that seemed to encompass months, this one seems to be flying by. o.o Part of that is probably because I've been focusing on my data entry project for the past two days -- it gets tedious, but at least it's something I know how to do. I actually feel productive, and at the end of the day I can say I've done something more than stare at people in the lab and nod as they explain stuff to me. XD

Otherwise, I've been a lazy, lazy homebody. Doing the 9-to-5 thing in a cublicle day after day is draining, in its own way; when I get out of there, I'm content to veg. As such, I have done nothing of interest; hopefully this weekend I can get some shopping done, and also maybe make a Starbucks run. :D

*yawns* Tired. Is late (for me, anyway). Am sleepy -- am probably making y'all sleepy reading this. ^_^;; G'night!

Saturday, July 12, 2003
12:50 p.m.

Watched a few episodes of Shaman King last night (but with iffy subbing ... I mean, you'd think the fact that they say "Best Place" in English would eliminate any confusion over the translation, no?) and remembered how much I love Ryu. XD It reminded of what neko-chan told me about rumors that he would become the Shaman King in the manga -- though I don't think that particular outcome will take place, as it's somewhat anticlimactic for a shounen series. Rather, I think his role is/will be like Yahiko in RuroKen. They both have similar hero-worship of the main character, as well as an impressive untapped potential. Plus, they both have bokutou. :D (Now, I'm not saying there will be a scene in the end with Yoh bestowing Harusame upon Ryu or anything. But wouldn't it be fun if we saw him, five years later, saving Lyserg from being roughed up by a bunch of thug types? XD;;)

Anyhoo ... yeah, I'm taking a brain-break after my first week of work. ^_^; I think I'll do something shamelessly artsy and distinctly non-histological today, like WRITE. Oooo. XD;;

And finally, a quiz that tells me what's really important:

morally deficient
Threat rating: Medium. Your total lack of decent
family values makes you dangerous, but we can
count on some right wing nutter blowing you up
if you become too high profile.

What threat to the Bush administration are you?
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And I don't think it's a perfectly sound idea to go charging in and fixing Liberia, either. *shock!* Someone deport me to Canada or something, before I can infect the good, red-blooded Americans around me! XD

Friday, July 11, 2003
08:44 a.m.

Waaai, it's Friday~~ (Now if I could just save that enthusiasm until the *afternoon* instead of the morning ... ^_^;) And here I am, blogging as I finish my breakfast -- Krispy Kreme donut, just the right way to start out your day. XD;;

The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen is out today, but I don't know if I can get to see it. I'd like to, though, if only because I want to see how much they screw with literary canon. XD

Okay, and I'm off to be productive~~

Wednesday, July 9, 2003
12:38 p.m.

Psst ... don't tell anyone, but I'm at work. ^_~;; Also don't tell anyone about the wicked gleam I got in my eye when I found out my computer has Photoshop on it. Photoshop Elements, but still ... there are possibilities. XD;;

Oh, and I've been messing with the layout a bit more -- I don't think it's ever going to work in Netscape. :P

Tuesday, July 8, 2003
09:05 p.m.

If anyone has been coming to this page in the last couple of days, they've been witness to some very odd HTML indeed ... That's what happens when I don't have access to any of my FTP accounts, and must make do with what I have in order to edit code. XD;; BUT ... I think I finally got it. (If anyone out there can't see the layout correctly now ... well, too bad. XD)

Um, work? Work goes. Sometimes I'm not sure what direction it's going in. ^_^; At the moment I'm just holding on for dear life and hoping I can make it through the next two months unscathed (from either humiliation or communicable disease o_o). I think some people have the wrong impression of just how much experience/education I have in the field (science in general: minimal, histology: none). But, well. Have been managing to get along fairly well, thanks to neechan and some very helpful coworkers. Even though I'm still a science-clueless literature geek, I have a vague idea of what the company is doing, and now not *everything* people say goes over my head. Some things I have learned thus far:

-how to use a cryostat microtome
-what a cryostat microtome is XD;;
-my knowledge of Photoshop is actually useful, for digital imaging of tissue (w00t for randomly acquired skills!)
-the typical 9-to-5 workday is *not* my thing
-cubicles, however, might be (hey, it beats standing behind the counter at the convenience store)

Et cetera, et cetera. At least I've got family here; it keeps me from getting lonely. ^_^

Anyhoo, hope you like the layout. (Well, you better, because it's going to be here for the next two months, at least. XD) Also, if there's anyone who couldn't see the last one, and still wants to know what it looks like, I made a screencap.