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~not your angel~
sigel phoenix. eighteen year-old fangirl. residing in washington state and attending uw. accessible at moenokori, or through email. ~currently~
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Saturday, February 22, 2003
11:17 p.m. On break. *nikoniko* At work. *nikoniko* Yeah, I'm going to be a tremendous geek about this for awhile -- but hell, I'm *working* and being *productive*, and if I have to give up my Saturday nights with her, then it's better done making money than anything else, right? (An' it just means we'll have to squeeze more fun out of Fridays. XD) So ... I sort of forgot that I *could* take breaks, so this is the first one I've taken since I got here at 7:30. ^_^; My feet hurt. >_> I dunno what I'm going to do on the days that the assistant manager is here, because technically we're not supposed to even lean on the counters, and that's the only relief I get otherwise ... So. You got "Gravity," you say? o_o Give. Give me now. XO (Also, you wouldn't by chance happen to have any Garnet Crow albums, would you? *woobly eyes*) Friday, February 21, 2003
05:30 p.m. *points to sidebar* XD XD XD Okay, so it's totally lame to get so excited over this, but -- I have a job! My first steady job! I'm starting tomorrow! SQUEE!! XD Friday, February 21, 2003
01:48 p.m. Hm. I've wondered about this, myself -- the line became particularly blurry during the end of F_W's stint on LJ, when some people were getting rather nasty and personal in their attacks. I think that's what bothered some people, and what tends to be cited as evidence against F_W. But in general ... especially lately, it's gone back to the somewhat-snarky-somewhat-facetious tone that I found so entertaining in the first place. The attempts to make F_W seem nastier than it is -- hell, just to make it seem more *significant* than it is, rather pisses me off. Especially when virtually all the commentary I see nowadays (barring the pseucide kerfluffle; I was too scared to look at that one) is humorous, and it's other people who are calling *them* things like "shit-flinging liars" and "back-stabbing cunts." O.o (Erm, and at least one of the regulars is a guy. Ah well.) Everything's more entertaining when people give F_W no more or less consideration than it deserves -- i.e. Thamiris, whose banter with the F_Wers gets pretty damn funny. XD Anyway, back to your question. >_> I only see people being mocked for using academic language and obscure allusions when it's used to try to attach greater significance to fandom than it really merits. I mean, Shakespeare didn't write fanfic, Smallville doesn't qualify as highbrow literature, and RPSers aren't contributing to the moral deterioration of society. Sometimes the academic flavor is also used as an attempt to assert some kind of superiority, too, and that get's mocked. XP ... This is probably somewhat wankish. *shrug* I read both F_W and Metablog and don't see any contradiction. It just depends on whether I'm in a snarky or analytic mood. ^_^; Been inclined toward the former lately, because of the brain power I have to spend on my paper ... The problem with trying to write a structured paper, instead of a onetime rant, is that I'm running out of vitriol. It's getting kind of boring; I need an outlet. ^_^; Also, since I have a meeting about my job today (!!!) I won't be able to meet you in any case. I'm not sure if I'll be late for the showing. I'm not sure you'll even read this before you go ... ^_^; Thursday, February 20, 2003
03:00 p.m. My Japanese professor used Iron Chef images in his Powerpoint lecture in order to teach us about the vocabulary for different kinds of cuisine. XD Man, I love this guy. If you want to put yourself through the pain, you're more than welcome to read the article next time you come to my room. It's short, and the pain is (relatively) quick. I will, however, have to require that you stay a good distance away from me and not inflict any physical harm on me or my property. As a precaution, you know. >.> BTW, are you going to the meeting tonight? Or are you still in the clutches of CSE projects? I'm not sure myself, since I have paper to write and Dickens to read ... Hm. Was considering entering the SakCon fic contest, then realized that the deadline had already passed. Whup. ^_^; ('Sall right, though; having Ashes win once has provided enough fodder for my ego to feed on for years to come. XD) And speaking of fic contests -- RKRC nominations are almost over ... and now that I've finally remembered to actually *do* mine, I thought I should put up this reminder. ^_^; So, yeah, go nominate stuff. Off to discuss my paper with my TA. *crosses fingers* Wednesday, February 19, 2003
06:42 p.m. I think "magnitudinous" should be a word. Other than that, don't have much to say. Except -- I'm finally getting a job. ^o^ Theoretically tomorrow. Also, I watched American Idol last night, and I'm gonna do it again tonight, TV slut that I am. XD;; Tuesday, February 18, 2003
11:03 p.m. Status of my philosophy paper, thus far: I thought I would need to address a couple of different articles in order to meet the length requirement. Turns out I don't, because this one piece is written by a FLAMING IDIOT who manages to pack three pages with a cartload of CRAP. This is good, because that means I have a lot to say, and I won't get bored. This is bad, because I don't think I can use foul language and snarky humor in my paper. XD;; No, seriously -- I'm a bit troubled by the fact that I consider nearly *all* this guy's arguments to be founded on unjustifiable cultural assumptions (while at the same time, theoretically proposing a radical restructuring of contemporary lifestyles. Go fig.) because I'm afraid I'm missing some great and brilliant aspect of his argument. Also, he's considered a great-and-uber-smart-modern-day-philosopher-man. Am I missing something here? :/ Ah well. I'll write it, send it to my TA, and see if he tears it apart. Or if I end up getting an A for effort and a free Writing credit in the process. :D Head beginning to hurt. All I see in the article is "Friends who have babies together are married! Couples in love are not, unless they're spawning!" But who knows, that may be what he's saying after all. :P Monday, February 17, 2003
08:49 p.m. English essay successfully completed. Now to start on my philosophy paper ... I think I can do it. I can. (All 8-11 pages of it, by next Tuesday. ^_^;;) The only problem is getting a thorough response/critique out of me, sans snarky commentary, when some of these articles make me want to bite my own fingers off. Especially this one article (from 1993, no less) that asserts the heart of marriage as being "procreation and friendship." Yes, that's right, being married is all about being buddies and having babies. (And I do understand that "friendship" isn't meant in that specific sense, but the characterization of marital love as such is rather ambiguous. In this way, you could have a man and a woman who are really good friends who deeply love each other -- but are not *in love* with each other -- and slap a baby on them and call them married. But gay couples? Straight couples who don't want kids? Nooo ... of *course* they're not married.) *deep breath* Just getting that out of my system before I write my paper. :P Though I don't really know what to do with the Kant selection, from his Lectures in Ethics, about the nature of sexual desire. I think the problem lies in the classification of sexuality as some kind of "other," to be elevated as Good and True because of its connection to procreation, or to be vilified as characteristic of animals -- in no way is it connected to any other bodily functions, or human social behaviors, of course. And, well, I don't agree. But I'll spare everyone and save it for the paper. ^_^; I'm planning to do this paper on homosexuality, but really I could write about sex in general ... which I'll perhaps fall back on if I run out of material. XD;; Anyway, enough about that. Weekend was fun, having today off was nice. Neko-chan and I were caught in a throng of anti-war protesters on Saturday when they -- *shock!* stampeded into Uwaji's for lunch! XO (Also saw a few people we knew from school, including my Japanese TA from last quarter. ^_^) I'm slightly concerned about the snowstorm in the Northeast. I didn't think it was a big deal before, but now on the news they're blaring "SNOW STORM OF THE CENTURY" and things like that. So, um, drop me an email or something and let me know everything's okay? And send the recipe, too -- I want my brownies soon. :D Saturday, February 15, 2003
02:04 a.m. Happy Valentine's, all ... Even though it's technically the 15th -- hey, I haven't been to sleep yet, so it still counts. XD I didn't even really remember, actually; I was mostly aware of its looming presence through neechan's plotting and sort of forgot that it was a general social holiday. Luckily Eric remembered and provided all us single folk with plenty of chocolate to distract us from the lovey-doveyness. XD In honor of the holiday, neechan had set up the KareKano video to the "Far and Away" theme for the mini-break in the showing ... and gawd, I was reminded of how I love that AMV. *_* How it was put together as well as how it highlights some of my favorite parts of the series (ummm ... the half that I've seen >.>) and how it still makes me feel fuzzy inside. :D I still want that, someday. Not Arima and Miyazawa's exact relationship -- now who in their right mind would *choose* a shoujo relationship, with all the crap they go through? ^_~ -- just, you know, the *stuff.* Like when they lean their foreheads together, in the episode where their parents meet with the administration about their relationship. And it's just -- soft. Quiet. Comfortable. I'd like to have that. Or maybe just a little bit of it. Hell, a kiss like theirs, that has violins for its background music -- I'm not picky, though. I could settle for just having it feel like that. ^_~ Thursday, February 13, 2003
04:29 p.m. Yeah, I do know. :P I just wanted to point out neechan's layout because it was supposed to be specifically for Valentine's. Cause nothing says 'I love you' like a katana cleaving your flesh. (... Okay, sorry, that was really morbid. XD;;) And you get to see Stomp? And Cirque du Soleil! And -- THAT'S NOT FAIR! YOU GET TO SEE MISS SAIGON!!! XO (Six years -- *six* years since it last came to Portland. It has to come back soooon. T________________T) *whinewhine* *crycry* Okay, got it out of my system. :P You have? It might ... um, it *might* ring a vague bell ... But really, llama stories should be something you remember being told about, right? ^_^;; (And heck yeah, I sketch out layouts before I make them, though that's because I can't visualize tables in my head ... otherwise, I'll usually end up forgetting to include a cell or something. XD;;) Product of Random Surfing #4361: I like this girl's icon. XD I don't know why, but I found it hilarious -- probably because I'm in the computer lab right now and it makes it that much worse when I snicker to myself. :P That, or I'm just really tired. Well, I *am* really tired, either way. But. I seem to have degenerated entirely into social blogging as of late, haven't I? That, and random links. I just don't have anything to say on my own, I suppose. >_> Though I did see The Vagina Monologues last night, and it was great. Absolutely hilarious, and rather well done. I wonder how the handful of guys in the audience felt watching it, though -- even I got uncomfortable at some parts. ^_^;;; Time to go home, do my English reading, and then maybe get some writing done? I'm not sure. I've somewhat developed one of the ideas I had for a multi-part fic, because ... well, I want to be able to write something other than oneshots. (And would-be epics. *pats Ashes*) Have I whined about this here already? ^_^;; Anyhoo, I even have an outline -- sort of. Chapter titles and vague plot points. It all sounds rather pitiful to even me; but I swear last night it seemed much more plausible. Then again, last night I was also reading Rumi poetry, and reading Rumi has the dubious benefit of making me believe I can do absolutely anything in the world. XD;; Remind me not to read him before making any major decisions in my life, hm? ... Or I could indulge in the perfectionist abilities I already *know* I have, and make the calendar-thingy I'm supposed to do for the club. As a ... self-affirmation, of sorts. XD;; Wednesday, February 12, 2003
03:47 p.m. Happy Valentine's Day! Go look at romantic dead people. XD;; (Kidding -- it's sweet, in a morbid way ... don't hurt me ...) Llamas?! This requires some explaining! You've been holding out. :P Dare I tell you that there is yet *more* to the leggywuverforever saga? I'm afraid I'd be able to hear your brain snapping from my building ... but it's kinda amusing to view it all through the veil of Fandom Wank. One of my favorites? "If such a thing as an Encyclopedia of Wank existed, you'd find this under 'DEAD HORSE, FLOGGING.'" XD;; (Though I understand your pain, really. I mean, it's one thing to attempt a joke that nose dives right after takeoff; it's altogether something else to think you can "fix" it by apologizing wretchedly and profusely -- oh, how profusely! -- in a sick attempt at getting people to pity you. Or, as you say, ass-covering.) And, since we're on the subject, why not highlight a new instance of a very old practice? After all, nothing says ass-covering like feeling the need to repeatedly assert: "BUT I AM NOT RACIST." It's been a long time since I've seen one of these -- nostalgic, in a crassly amusing and masochistic way. XD;; Going to see the Vagina Monologues tonight -- whee! :D Tuesday, February 11, 2003
03:44 p.m. See, because of the Dragon's Pen meeting, I knew I'd miss American Idol tonight. But that was okay, I wouldn't have minded ... But I heard a commercial on the radio this morning, and apparently someone's going to sing a Bonnie Raitt song ("Something to Talk About"), and, see, I love that song, so now I have to watch it. So I'm just going to be a TV whore and tape it. XD;; Go read this post over at the Abortion Debate to see something that would have me spitting mad, if not for the fact that all the respondents have been rational and level-headed. The sad thing is this poster has actually gone through what she's talking about ... and still thinks rape victims should be forced to gestate an unwanted fetus. >_< Go down a few posts and you'll see the story of a nine year old rape victim who *is* having that done to her, despite the fact that her body is not developed enough to handle delivery, because of Costa Rican law. Uh-huh. ... But, enough of that. Go here for the, ah, thrilling conclusion to the leggywuvverforever saga. It's ... pretty sad, actually. But the comments are funny. :P Oh yeah, and I had my English midterm today. It went ... not badly. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping for the best. ^_^; Monday, February 10, 2003
08:15 p.m. Because ... I'd say it's because I'm bored, but I'm not. I haven't even touched my English review, actually. So, actually, this is because I am quite willfully and blithely distracting myself. XD;; THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
THREE THINGS I LOVE:
THREE THINGS I HATE:
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY LOOKS:
THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
Hai, dekimashita.
I am muchly pleased. XD The chance to see Ishida Youko in concert, live? I'm there! (Though I wonder what we'll have to do to get into the concert -- because it's not a question of 'if,' you see.) ... And, "courtesy of Pioneer Entertainment," they say? Now, if only they'd do something with, say, Victor or Avex. XD
And now it is time to commence preparation for my English midterm tomorrow. ~_~ I feel the same way as I did over philosophy -- at first I thought it'd be (relatively) easy, then realized I had a *lot* of studying to do (though I did end up feeling and doing well on my philosophy midterm, so maybe I can cross my fingers that this will turn out the same way ^_^;;). I just don't want to underestimate the test; yet at the same time there's no reason to freak out uncontrollably. I did that enough in my first two years of high school -- I'd completely stress out over every test or project that came my way. Of course, it always turned out fine (more or less), but instead of taking that as a sign to calm down I'd hold the utterly illogical (and unhealthy) idea that things would only work out if I *did* freak out, over every little thing. -_-;; One of the things that finally made me get over myself was watching other people, like my parents, as they operated in the real world and dealt with *actual* problems. After that, everything I would whine and cry and panic over just seemed like a waste of energy. Much more fun without it. ^_^
So ... not stressing. But studying. And studying well. Yes, well. *crosses fingers*
Ahh, just got back from stuffing myself full of yummy food and cute things at neko-chan's. :D Oishikatta desu nyaaa~~~ (And yes, do go to the link she has for frickin' cute Sanzou stuff. XD)
Got to see my parents yesterday, which was really nice -- and not just cause they brought us food and took us out to dim sum. XD Seriously, though -- I didn't realize it had been so long since I'd seen them. When I'm here, I hardly notice time passing by; it's only when I see or talk to someone from back home that I realize my first year of college is half over. O.o Of course, it doesn't help that I'm horrible at correspondence anyway, so "I'll call/email/whatever later" always turns into months of non-communication ... XP I really do need to (and want to!) fix that. ^_^;;
Oscar nominations come out Tuesday! I saw an article in the paper today that had the editors' picks, and I heartily agreed with a lot of them. Like Lord of the Rings (yay!) and Chicago (YAY!!) and The Hours (er ... haven't seen it, but I heard it's good ^_^;) for Best Picture. Renee Zellweger and Catherine Zeta Jones were listed as near-certain nominees for Best Actress/Supporting Actress, and Richard Gere and John C. Reilly as likely candidates for Best Actor/Supporting Actor. Personally, I think John C. Reilly *really* deserves it for Chicago. (... but they also said Viggo Mortenson could be a possibility, too! Oh, the dilemma! XD;;)
/end pointless rambling entry ^_^;;;
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